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| My "father" wishes that I was like this without him in my life. |
I received more messages from my "father" Kenneth E Paschall Jr. He calls himself a father, makes me want to laugh. He seems to think that I need his advice about how to live my life and the career choices that I make for myself. I don't need either, he wasn't in my life for 16 years, what in the hell make him think I need him in my life now when I'm twenty-one (21) years old. I've got two, not one, but TWO careers, getting married (probably), getting my own apartment, my own vehicle, and paying my own bills. He can boss around my older brother because Kenny isn't as smart nor does he have the intelligence to tell my "father" to take a flying fucking jump off a cliff. I realize that it sounds as though I'm being "harsh" towards Mr. Asshole, but through all the bullshit that he had put my mother, my grandparents and my self through he deserves absolutly no respect from me. If people knew how he really is, they wouldn't treat him with respect either. I'll put in DEEP detail of the things he had done to us, his own blood, later in my blog.
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| I've got this kind of attitude & it says just how I feel |
Once again your lies have not gone unnoticed. Jessica Denise Paschall, you really need to grow up.
ReplyDeleteGrow up...
ReplyDeleteIt’s really sad that you chose to just walk away from your father. With that kind of attitude towards others who do care about you, you are going to find life rather difficult to get through. I bet your father would give anything to be a positive part of your life today even if it’s just a small part. Apparently you won’t give him a chance regardless. One day you won’t have that opportunity any longer, perhaps sooner than you think.
ReplyDeleteI could go into detail on this subject because of my own experience with my own father. I know more than what you would ever want to know about this subject myself.
It’s been years now and no word from either of you?
Are you both still living?
Has your father passed away?
I see that your father wasn’t part of your life for 16 years?
Was that his choice or yours?
Or was someone else responsible for it?
You know after so many years it’s hard on either of you to build any kind of relationship, specially when you choose not to even give him an opportunity. You seem to have closed your mind to even giving him a fair chance. You should keep in mind that your father may not be the person you always dreamed he would be, but he is still your father and nothing will ever change that fact. I’m quite sure he has gone through hell and it would appear that you are just trying to prolong his hell life as long as possible but are you? Who are you really hurting doing that, clearly he is a survivor, but for how long?
Only God knows how long he will be around and no father wants their child to suffer, not even when it’s a necessary evil.
Just FYI I found your father online, but I’ve not said anything to him. From what I’ve seen of him online and based on my own personal experiences with my own father, you’re running out of time.
I hope you don’t choose to miss the opportunity to really get to know him yourself. Put aside everything anyone has ever told you about him and learn for yourself who he is before it’s just who he was. You might be surprised to know. He remarried (to a nurse) and has been married for at least 14 years. Based on what I was able to dig up about him, he is no quitter, he stuck with his wife through another kind of hell. In my opinion he is definitely a broken man. Was he in the military? You do realize that his experiences in his life made him who he is today. The only person who loses by you walking away is you. You lose the opportunity to discover him and why he is broken. You lose the ability to get all the time back that you should have been a part of his life.
If you want to contact him, just say so.